I have had so much on my mind/heart/spirit in the last few months but whenever I sat down and tried to blog, I was unable to articulate my thoughts. So, I didn't. However, I believe that is changing. Right now.
I feel like I have been in a state of hibernation.. ya know, just kind of sleeping in a nice, warm cave while food is scarce and it's freezing cold outside (I do my best with analogies, lol). Seriously though, since my time with eMi last summer, I feel that I've been slowly losing that fire that was burning deep in my soul last summer. The fire that fueled my willingness to do whatever God wanted me to at whatever the cost - my time, my resources, my energy, my desires, my everything. I didn't quite realize it until just recently. It slowly crept up on me.
APATHY.
Seriously, it's so sneaky. I didn't even realize that I was giving into it until after the fact. It is so easy to just go with the flow. To not do anything risky. To be safe. To be indifferent. (I may be being a bit over-dramatic here..)
However, God is good and He is faithful to wake us bears after our long sleep (I really should just abandon this analogy.. I'm no C.S. Lewis). Even as I type this, I feel Him stirring my soul. Re-kindling that fire that was once blazing and bright.
I hear Him close by. Can you hear Him? He's here. He's now. He's waking us up. He's telling us how much He loves us! He's calling out to us.
I feel Him near. Can you feel Him? He's so close. Stretching His arms out towards us. Drawing us into Himself. He wants to be with us. He wants to hold us. Why?
LOVE.
He loves us. He desires to be with us. How humbling is that? That the God of the Heavens (click on the link!) would want to be in relationship with us! That the Designer of the universe cares deeply about everything about us. Not just the big things, but even the small things. He cares so much about us:
From heaven the LORD looks down
and sees all mankind;
from his dwelling place he watches
all who live on earth—
he who forms the hearts of all,
who considers everything they do.
But the eyes of the LORD are on those who fear him,
on those whose hope is in his unfailing love,
to deliver them from death
and keep them alive in famine.
And with that, I'm done. More to come soon. :)
Cheers.
